Throughout boundless of hectic
days since last year July till today, oh well it’s been a year I have not
update any new post in my blog. Practically forgotten everything about my blog,
just notice the existence of my blog through an update of my friend by sharing
its post via Facebook. Guess I have to discreetly jot down some of the
remarkable occurrences happened to me in within this year that I've substantially
MIA (missing in action) from my blog.
Well few worlds’ apart fragments
are to be elaborated, these are the elements I’d sub in – generally it’s
related to my studies, music life and relationships between my friends and
family. Move on to studies matter, it is breathless for me to confer as these
endless days of assessments and schoolwork merely expurgated my HP (health
point) to half. It was pathetic though as my final year and semester will start
off by July and consider to expose myself to the ‘real’ working environment soon
by next year January or February maybe? At that moment I could visualize the limitless
holidays or breaks I had when I was studying, most importantly… as conformity to
most of the employees – “sleeping hours were essentially neglected as soon as the
moment you have committed to…”, I couldn't agree more! Sigh... I’ll be missing
my precious sleeping hours and breaks soon I had throughout my studies days… it doesn't matter anyway.
I've never give up my
music activities, as usual I will carry out in my daily routine (if I am home),
I’d be practicing my favorite pieces on my Electone, guitar and drums (if I am
at someone’s place for the kit). Without these instrument, I could visualize
the stress and boundless tension I’m dealing with daily during weekdays would
never be released and makes me feel so sick and tired of the daily routine I
had.
I’d like to share some of
my experiences of… a weird relationship between me and a friend of mine. We
both get to know each other through a social platform (sort of like Facebook). The
picture she used for her profile was literally caught up my attention at the
first sight and instinctively I've sent a message to her as I keen to know this
person and hope she could be one of my friend. Everything went well as time goes
by and eventually she step back from the comfort zone and
does not want to further progress the relationship. As much as I wanted it to
take place, it doesn't go off as stuffs you’re usually assuming as it supposed to be.
Out of the blue after several months, she initiated the conversation and confess
certain issues she’s been dealing with to me. For a moment of time, I
was plainly ‘stoned’ as I have no idea what should I do nor things that I've decided
to get rid of suddenly arrive on the scene to strike me off. As time goes by, we both are getting closer
to each other and unwanted occurrences started to take place in between both of
us again. Oh well, guess I am a little reluctant to tell what’s happening all over
again.. It’s wasn't easy though as these minor matters would upset you over a
period.. Guess I should put a halt to here regarding to this subject.
It’s pretty late right
now and I couldn't fall asleep. I've no idea why my life seemed a little messed up and
constantly coming up with disappointments. I’m jealous of people who could put
a smile on their face throughout the entire day and strong enough to deal with anything regardless of relationship, work etc. When I am weak, I would pray to the lord for
strength to cope with the difficulties that come upon me. However, the outcome was kind of dissimilar
as what you thought it would be at the beginning. I couldn't express the peculiar
feelings I had recently and I am kind of lost in the midst of hardship. Sigh…
