It’s been months I have not updated my blog and certainly I do not have much time spending on my new beloved instrument – my organ. Have not been learning any new pieces ever since few months ago when I have started my work and so forth... Guess I really need to move forward on learning some nice and comforting music to please my mom and undoubtedly yes, been bored by reiterating the same songs and melodies - ‘again and again’.
Forgetting the past isn’t as easy as saying, it takes one’s effort and passion to overcome the acrimonious pain set off from the past and certainly uncertainties happened upon accepting the new ones isn’t flabbergast, as it may seize the wind out of your sails from nowhere. From the beginning I thought this connection could prolonged as time goes by but I did not expect that what is happening on next could unreservedly affected my mood and I didn’t know that actually I am having a strong intensity on your attempts, all the changes that have been made by you throughout these months. I really appreciate and honestly I am touched by the little things you have did for me without hesitation or being grumpy, nor searching for excuses for being indecorous.
I will not expect too much from you.. that you may...
and I know you have been given up your hope…
thank you for every little things that you have did from the past, it simply enlightened me in different ways and sorry for hurting you deeply, I knew there isn’t anything that I could do may perhaps solely fix and reimburse the pain which caused by me, you have cheered me up when I am suffering from depression or having dilemmas on dealing with relations with my friends and family. You’re one of the best person I’ve ever met, and thanks for everything. I have never received such a beautiful birthday card throughout these years and all the amazing stuff from someone else; unquestionably you are the first one who crafted these beautiful memories in my heart.
I know there is nothing much left for me to say,
maybe this would be the last interval of impediment between you and me,
you should just forget everything about the past and move on your life,
and I sincerely thank you for everything you did for me.
If you persist to pull me down controvert the truth that you still.. This will be the last chance given to you, it's up to you anyway.. if you could be honest to me and appreciate the past, we could be friend. if you don't, I will not hold you despite the fact I will just ignore and not going to bother every single...
